T-O-O A-C-T-U-A-L

It´s June. Nice summer evening. Well, I wish I could just sit on the balcony, drink whatever and smile to the rain. My reality: Sitting in my brother´s room in front of the PC, trying to study geography. Quite easy, you may think. Everyone knows how to find Afrca on the map. But what about industry? What about urbanisation? Still easy? So that´s why I´m sitting here pretending to be interested in a book from 1994. You see? How can I bee interested in a geography book from 1994??? Don´t get me wrong, it is not because I´m against the year, it is about the actuality. I´ve just found out that our future is gonna be very nice, really positive. The trouble is that the "future" is described like the year 2000 in this book. Tell me how can I learn something about this world when I don´t even have the right reasources. I don´t have enough time to watch the news that much. I don´t have time to search for the information on the Internet... I don´t have time, because I have to sit here and look into this damn ´94 ´s book! God, this is the level of our educational system? Look, I don´t need a brand new geography book every year (too many trees being cut down). I would be completely satisfied with recent information. The teachers are often like some stupid puppets who are just working as they´ve been told because there are some "schemes" which only allow them to teach with a book from the previous decade. I sometimes want to stand up and shout: " oh, c´mon! Have you completely lost your mind? It´s 2013 and you´re talking about the population statistics from 2003? Not actual at all!" The world has changed. If we want to stay informed about recent things we have to have accurate information from accurate resources.  
You see, some Slovak girl from high school is trying to critisize the teachers! How could she dare? Well, doesn´t matter how but you´re right.I want to critisize you. Because even though we (the students) are mean, careless and we don´t accept any authority, it doesn´t mean that we want to be stupid. It should be your priority to teach us something useful, or not? Be sensible!
Well, I finally closed the book. From 1994...my brother was born then. He´s graduated couple of days ago actually. I think I´ll go and talk to him right now. Hey, Peter, did you know that in population of China in the year of your birth was...
Hmm, golden age...

The crossroads

During the life people are living through many difficult times. Everyone knows how it feels when you´re struggling. In work, in relationship, at school, anywhere. You can have a small problem with the easiest solution ever but you still think it´s a big one.  Some people may say it´s selfish to look only after your troubles or to think about them as about the biggest and they´re right in some way, they really are. It is not good to lock up into yourself and not to notice anything around except you and your problems. But otherwise they´re completely wrong. Telll me, how can I help the others to solve their heart-breaking situations when I can´t even deal with mine. It´s true that we should help the others but when you´re here for everything and everyone, your true personality is dying inside and in the end, there will be nothing, just some kind of human body with a soul divided into thousands of pieces given to all those happily-looking people who are trying to be satisfied with your help. See? Just trying to look like that, cause the help is not enough. When you have a problem, a helping hand of your friend is not everything. The one who has to fight is YOU. So don´t be surprised if your friend won´t be that thankful beacuse of your support. You see, help is a very generous gift but if the donor is represented by some remains of a human being...not useful at all.

Well, as I said, people are struggling all the time and they´re trying to stop but it´s hopeless. People are people and they won´t be anything more. I know. It feels awful. Standing at the crossroads, looking on the left, looking on the right, trying to figure out which path is the "chosen one".  The head or the heart? The risk or safety? It´s so damn tough to make a decision!  When I choose head, everyone will be satisfied, it seems to be a sensible, reasonable choise but what about me? Will I be happy? And if I choose to follow the heart?     

Is it right? Is it ok to hurt so many people and just go and chase THE THING I think I´ll be satisfied with? And what if it won´t work? What if the risk will be the biggest mistake I could make?

You know, one of my closest told me once that if I get into this kind of situation, I should do what´s best for me. That I shouldn´t care about the others, they will be all right. And I think that my dearest brother is right. You should do what YOU consider to be the best for you. Of course, there are problems which can´t be solved like this but it is the first step, really.

Now, it´s up to you. Don´t hide, look for the solutions of your troubles. Decide however you want to. Head or heart, arms or legs, it´s your choice. But to be honest, I would prefer the heart. It´s a temple of all your secret dreams and desires. Just try to listen to it, to the bang-bang thing, and you´ll know what to do.

When I said that the help is not everything I didn´t mean it´s nothing. Listen to the song. This is one of MY helping hands. Don´t care about the video, about the appearance of the singer or whatever ;). Just the song...